tic toc tic toc...here's to my resolution

Walking to work this morning it dawned upon me that in exactly one month I'll be another year older. Well, personally for me the idea is just frightening! Sure, I'll be lying if say there wasn't a time when i looked forward to having my birthday, sweet 16, legal 18, mature adult 21. Even when some of my friends were struggling to grasp the thought of turning 20, i was even super excited to turn 25.
However, the years left in my twenties are slowly coming to an end and are closer to 30 than 20. Although it's not my age which bothers me, it's what i have achieved at this age. I can be quite hard on myself that i know, but I just feel unfulfilled with this year, and as there's only 1 month left before the end that i feel maybe i should try and turn it around. So instead of starting my new years resolution on my birthday or on New Years, why not start now! Slowly with little resolutions, which I can start at any minute of any hour of any day and with no rules attached.
I often feel, and maybe you are the same, that you start your resolution as the clock strikes 12 and then if you break it, well that's it, the resolution is forgotten and back we go to our bad habits, that is until the next year. Yip we all do it, why do you think the gym is always so full in January, and by the time June arrives it's you and 20 other empty bikes at the 6 am spinning, that's if you've even made it that far.
New Year resolution's suck and it's not that I'm boycotting them, it's just that i think making daily resolutions for myself will elevate the pressure and make it more likely to succeed in a year filled with resolutions but no pressure of it actually lasting a year.
So I'm not going to make a list of 1 million resolutions to start right now, I'm just going to start with one simple one and that is to post here more often. This is rather going to be something for me than for anyone else; a visual and written journal which I'm willing to share if you are interested to read.
This has been a serious lost in translation year, and it's not just because I'm working and living in a foreign language, but also because i actually have just felt lost.
So this is a little resolution to build my map and discover life and everything else with it, whatever it is, not just fashion and design.

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